Incomprehensible

Do you ever wonder why it seems like the righteous receive what the wicked deserve and the wicked receive what the righteous deserve? This is something that I really questioned when I was in high school. I remember really struggling with this. I felt like I was doing things right yet it seemed like there was no reward. I wasn't looking to be rewarded for the way that I lived, that is the wrong attitude to have. I just thought that life could be a little better. I had an imaginary idea in my head that if I lived a righteous life that everything would be perfect. I tried not to swear, I tried to stay out of conversations that weren't giving God glory, and I did a decent job at it too. I was just so confused. The people who swore and talked about the worst of things and did bad things seemed to be enjoying life more that I was. Now I wasn't suffering with this idea, I was only struggling. I even remember writing a paper about it for one of my English classes. I remember finding scripture to help with my struggle and it helped a lot. At the time I wasn't very knowledgable of my faith yet and didn't have as strong as a relationship with Christ yet. I didn't realize that suffering lead to perseverance and that life wasn't about short term glory...rather it was running the race that would lead to the crown of life. My mind worked in one way, and it was short term.

There is something else meaningless that occurs on earth: the righteous who get what the wicked deserve, and the wicked who get what the righteous deserve. This too, I say, is meaningless. So I commend the enjoyment of life, because there is nothing better for a person under the sun than to eat and drink and be glad. Then joy will accompany them in their toil all the days of life God has given them under the sun. (Ecclesiastes 8:14-15) 

That scripture really helped me out a lot in that time. I was reminded that having the idea in my mind that I deserved better because I lived a righteous lifestyle was just meaningless and didn't matter. Who cares about the treasures that you get on earth, for we are to store treasures in heaven. That is what is meaningful. Meaningless! Meaningless! Everything is meaningless. We are commended to enjoy life while we are here. It is such a short life compared to eternity. Joy will accompany you no matter how toilsome your days are. Never forge that.

then I saw all that God has done. No one can comprehend what goes on under the sun. Despite all their efforts to search it out, no one can discover its meaning. Even if the wise claim they know, they cannot really comprehend. (Ecclesiastes 8:17) 

There is a reason that we do not understand the things that happen to us. We can try to figure out but we will understand. That is what makes our God so great and that is why I love Him so much. What kind of God would he be if we understood everything already? Everything that God has done is so much more than we could ever imagine. So when you struggle with the things you are going through, or you feel like you just don't understand, remember that you are not alone. Take your little to no understanding as a blessing and it'll change your outlook and perspective on everything.