Gods got you

How many times in your life have you asked God for something or prayed about something and that prayer didn't seem to come true? Or even what you asked never seemed to happen. When it comes to the phrase "Gods got you" it's all about your perception.

Perception is defined as someone being aware of something that is happening or has previously happened. 

For those of you who keep up with my life and my writing, you've probably read in a post or two that I accepted a job. I accepted a job with Northwestern Mutual in Mishawaka, Indiana. I will begin my career as a Financial Representative and then transition into becoming a Financial Advisor. In order for me to do this job I have to pass the Indiana Life and Health Insurance Exam.

Up until this past May, I did not know a single thing about life and health insurance. When we left for  vacation almost a month ago I decided to take this job and I knew that I was going to have to pass this exam. I purchased a self-study and have put hours of studying in everyday for the past three weeks. There is so much that I am learning now and I love seeing the hard-work payoff.

The long hours I have put in haven't paid off completely yet. I am 0/2. Yes, I have failed my exam twice. The first time I took it was this past Monday and I was 12% away from the passing score that I needed. I was extremely discouraged by the outcome, but was reminded from a lot of the people around me that all of this stuff is brand new to me and that it is okay that I didn't pass it the first time.

So it was back to the drawing board. I rescheduled my test for today so I had three full days to study again. I was blown away by the progress that I was able to make this week in regards to what I was learning and finally being able to retain.

When I woke up this morning, I was feeling extremely dangerous. (S/o to Baker Mayfield) I was fully confident that I was going to pass my exam. I was telling myself over and over in my head that I was going to pass and was already looking forward to the feeling I was going to feel when I saw the word "pass" on my exam.

All week I prepared myself for the feeling of finally passing. In every conversation I was having I would talk about how I was finally going to pass it and that I was so confident.

When I sat down to take my exam this afternoon I looked at the scrap sheet of paper they give you to write on if you have anything that you need to write out. The last time I took the exam I just let it sit there...this time I knew that I needed to write something on it that was going to be encouraging and uplifting.

On the top of that paper I wrote..."Gods got you." That is how confident I was in passing this exam. Every time I was stumped on a question or started to feel anxious I looked at that paper and was encouraged and knew that everything was going to be okay.

When I completed my exam, I even walked to the printer to get my results in a confident manner. The instructor had my results sitting facedown on his desk and I could see the graph and it looked like I had done really well. He handed me the results and I was 6% away from passing. I was super bummed out. I was so confident that I was going to pass it that I didn't even really feel like I had just failed again. I was at a loss of words...

After calling my girlfriend, I drove home without listening to any music. Which for me means that I am not in a the greatest of moods at all. Driving home with no music on allowed me to hear what was going on in my head better than normal. I was thinking about what I had written on my paper and how I was confused that if "Gods got me" why did I just fail again?

While I was driving I got a couple texts and calls from close friends and a lady from work. They were all very encouraging and not upset with me at all. Each person brought up others who had failed the test multiple times and now those people are very successful with Northwestern Mutual. I really felt better thanks to the encouragement I was receiving.

Then it hit me..."Gods got you." I didn't need to get a passing score to show that Gods got me. I need a passing score to get my license, and I know that will happen next time. I know that Gods got me because of all the kind words that were said to me on my drive home following the test.

Due to my perception and being aware of what was happening other than my test, I understood that Gods got me. When that thought reached my brain while I was driving, everything made sense now. Then I thought about other people's lives. We too often don't get what we ask God for and we get all flustered and mad because we thought the prayer had to be answered in the exact way we wanted it to! NO! Most of the time God doesn't answer our prayers in the ways that we want him too.

It's all about your perception. When I saw that I failed my exam today I could have been extremely disappointed in myself if my exam was all that I was thinking about...God isn't just doing something or focusing on one part of your life. God is control of your entire life and that is how we should perceive things.

God is fully in control, even when we don't get the results that we want.