Soul Longing

Have you ever experienced a feeling of longing before? Like when you long for something? That feeling is something that is usually deep down.

I believe that in our hearts, we have a longing for eternity.

"He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also he put eternity into man's heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end." (Ecclesiastes 3:11)

This is a verse that has changed my life. I remember when I first read it and then everything made sense to me. No wonder I am not fulfilled by things of this earth. Because eternity is set into man's heart. No wonder winning a basketball game isn't as fulfilling as God's love. It all made sense.

Think about it though, whenever we feel happiness about something like winning a game, or something we always feel that there is more to feel. That verse puts into perspective and gives reason to Christ being the #1 thing in my life. Nothing on this earth will forever fulfill me more than Christ. Nothing on this earth will ever long in my heart like eternity. Wrapping my head around eternity is so hard to do because eternity is forever!

Why am I writing about this tonight? One of the reasons is to encourage you with that verse and I hope it helps things make more sense. The other reasons is to describe the soul longing I experience when I miss out on reading my bible. The soul longing I experience is something I want to share with you because I think it's a testimony to the power of the Holy Spirit and the word of God.

I'm not perfect, and I am no where near perfect. My life began to change dramatically when I started reading my bible on a daily basis. Everything changes. My heart. My attitude. My outlook. The way I carried myself. Everything. I became very disciplined with this about a year and a half ago. Everyday I read some of my bible and it's my favorite time of day. Whether what I read is 10 minutes worth or 45 minutes. It's more fulfilling than anything else. The hard part is, life is busy and sometimes you don't have time. Yesterday, I didn't have time to read and I've gotten better at being able to accept that. Today I knew I was going to be able to read and write a blog post at some point, I just didn't know when I was going to. This morning and afternoon was kinda busy so I just decided I would wait till tonight. This afternoon, I experienced a feeling of soul longing. I knew exactly what my heart was missing out on and it was my alone time with God. It's such a difficult feeling to explain. It's hard! It's also unique to the point where I know what my heart and my soul need. That feeling of soul longing is a feeling I hope and pray you can experience someday. It's such a testimony to the fact that God needs to be the most important thing in our lives and that our God is so powerful. Our soul longs for the Holy Spirit.

The amazing thing is, as I sat down and read my bible tonight, and as I write this post, my heart is more full then ever. It's an indescribable feeling that I want everyone to feel...I want that more than anything.